🖋️ diary entry #2

 

it was a fairly good day today <3 i took the kids on a walk this morning before it got too hot and we did the typical mile that i aim for. baby girl didn't nap this time, but was smiling and looking around at the lights and shadows underneath the stroller cover, and little man wasn't too hot and brought along his ghost beanie baby. when we got home, i made little man some bacon and eggs and myself some oatmeal with brewer's yeast and a coffee (i did make some bacon for myself but it was confiscated by a hungry little dude lol). 

now, let me preface this next part by admitting that i am not a very skilled cook. my parents made fairly bland and boring meals growing up, so i didn't have much of an example when i became an adult. so when my husband asked me to cook purple hull peas, i agreed to try... and try i did. i browned some bacon, threw in the peas with some chicken broth, water, and salt, put it on low and figured it was like a crock pot situation. 

well, i was very, very wrong. i left with the kids to go to my parents for a little bit to hang out and print out some preschool activities for little man, and came back to this after a couple of hours:

so, needless to say, my husband was very sad. oops!! my house luckily wasn't smokey but instead smelt like tasty bacon, but i have definitely learned my lesson. i feel bad because it's no longer purple hull pea season, so he'll have to wait until next year to have the dish he wants - but maybe then i'll also be a better cook. that's a goal of mine in general, so this was kind of a wake up call to how inexperienced i really am. this was literally my face when i saw the pot lmao

i took little man and my niece swimming at my parent's house while my mom watched baby girl for a little bit. it was nice getting in the pool during such a bad heatwave, and it was fun getting to be with the kids and have some quality time with them. 

i also felt like i was more patient with little man today than i was yesterday, and did a better job of staying calm with him when my nervous system was literally ringing bells and flashing lights in my brain. i came to the realization that he probably is struggling with splitting my attention between himself and sister, and he does certain things to get my attention again because he's still adjusting to not being an only child. this coincides with my admission in the previous diary entry that i need to make more time to play and teach him, and just give him his mommy time.

i really enjoy putting my thoughts, feelings, and nonsense into this format of a blog. not only does it make me feel more regulated, i also feel like i've accomplished something, even if no one is reading my posts. i don't mind being in an echo chamber, i've been a pretty private and introverted person my whole life. at least here i can express myself anonymously without feeling constrained by other's thoughts and opinions, unlike places like facebook and tiktok where people i know are my followers/friends.

well, until next time, ciao!!